WEREWOLVES!?!?!?!

Oh, happy day! So, I've been on a kind of mood rollercoaster this last week. And, I basically blame Valentines Day for it. Stupid holiday with its stupid couples and its stupid candy hearts that I can't stop eating. But, mainly the "stupid couples" part. Pre-Valentines Day mindset: I'm single and that's ok, because I'm going to get my life together and find someone perfect for me that will be a great father-figure for Jackson, and then have perfect babies and find a perfect house and just be perfect forever. Post-Valentines Day mindset: I'm single and that's not ok, because I am the last single person on earth and I will be alone forever, with millions of cats and end up mummified in my son's attic one day (sorry, Jackson...but it could happen!). So, needless to say, my overly-dramatic post-Valentines attitude (mixed with some crazy hormones for this time of the month) has made Karen all WOOOOOOOOHAPPYCRAZY followed by BOOOOOOOOOOOCRAZYCRAZY in the span of like 30 seconds. Not cool, I say! Yesterday was my low point for BOOOOOOOOCRAZYCRAZY attitude, and I vented a bit to some work friends (vented= had a bit o' TMI regarding the crazy that is Karen). But, after work last night, I locked myself out of my apartment when I went to vote (woop woop Obama!!), and somehow that helped cure me! Well, I can't say that was the only thing that helped. Jackson did kill all of the "crabbiness" that he could find with his nerf gun, so there was no crabbiness left to make me sad and crabby, so <3 Jackson for that!

Hmmm... lost my train of thought. V-day sucks, candy hearts are gross but delicious... crazycrazy... woop Obama... nerf... Oh!

So. I went to bed semi-early, since eventhough Jackson did help (as well as my idiocy), I was not completely de-crabbified. I woke up this morning, and was in a pretty darn good mood! I did my hair all straight and rockstarish and wore my new skulls and hearts hoodie. I get to work and Curt reminds me that we're going to lunch today, so boooo for the boys making me take my lunch early (but yaaaay for them waiting until 11:15, so it wasn't tooooo early). But, I had fun, as usual, and then the rest of the afternoon, I was CRAZY. But, HAPPYCRAZY, so it's coo'. I was all hugging Althea, then hugged Curt, then got hugs from Myke. Ah, I love hugs. People need to hug more!!! *hugs herself* So, yeah. I was a hugging freak. And then I started getting sleepy, but not just regular sleepy, but giddy sleepy. So, everything was funny and I felt retarded, cuz I think I was the only one who found things funny, so that in itself was funny to me, so it made me laugh more! So since I was so crazy, I thought to myself "Why, I am awfully crazy today. I wonder if there is perhaps a full moon tonight?" So, I google "full moons" and pull up the farmers almanac and you know what? There is a freaking full moon tonight. So, now I can blame anything crazy I did today on the full moon and be void of any responsibility for my actions.

So, after work, I go and pick Jackson up and we head to the grocery store for some eggs (yay, cupcakes!) and then Taco Bell. As we're driving, we see the gigantic moon and Jackson is all "whoooaaaa, a full moon! That means..." and I go "that we're going to turn into werewolves??". He laughs and says "noooo, mom. It means that...." and I go "Other people are going to turn into werewolves and then turn US into werewolves???" and he laughs again and goes "noooo, mom. When there's a full moon, it means we can see Venus better" (which, I have no idea if this is true or not, but it's what he says, so I go with it). So then I go "And then Venus turns into a werewolf??" and he laughs and that's basically how our conversation went for the next 10 minutes.

And... for some reason keeps calling me "chicken nugget" today, which is kinda O.o, but what are you gonna do?
/chickennugget

Hmmm.. what else. Oh! So, I ordered 5 new t-shirts from Threadless. Now, I really don't NEED anymore t-shirts, but I really, super WANT more t-shirts, so yay for want winning over need! I have such a soft spot for t-shirts with cute saying or cute pictures, and Threadless is like MECCA for that. I got me a new Sumo shirt, a shirt with a diagram of the earth, a weird sci-fi comic book looking shirt, a shirt full of cliche super villians and one that shows us how hamburgers are made. Niiiiiiice. woop woop new shirts!

I think that's about it. So... ok then. I'm gonna leave now. So, see ya. Buh-bye! Hasta luego! Ciao!! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaand scene.
/exits stage left

Music pick for the Day: "I'd Do Anything" from Oliver! ("what, fisticuffs??") ^_^
Beverage for the Day: Agua
Socks for the Day: red and white Felix the Cat

Bye Bye Long Hair

And hellloooooo short hair!
So, it's been ~3 years since I last chopped my hair off. I've always been a grow-my-hair-out-get-sick-of-it-and-chop-it-off kind of gal, but tonight I am venturing into new territory: I'm not only chopping my hair off, but I'm layering it, so it's gonna be kinda super short in parts, which has caused me to have a few freak-out moments these past few days. Part of me is sooooo excited to get it done, since it's new and exciting and different, and then another part of me is soooo nervous because I've never had this style before and it could look like ass, and then yet another part of me wants to rock in the corner and vomit a bit because she is scared of losing her long, blonde hair.

But! I'm not going to chicken out. I'm going to walk into the salon at 5:30 and I ain't leaving until my hair is cut and dyed.

And then, after I get my new 'do, I'm off to Joann Fabrics to get some super sweet fabric to test out my brand spankin' new sewing machine! It arrived last night, and I set it up on my kitchen table and licked it. So it's mine now. I have to get a craft table eventually, but for now the kitchen table is as good as any! I'm pretty stoked about (yup, I said "stoked") making pillows and various clothes and such! My first project, however, will be to make some sweeeeeeet drum stick cozies!! \m/ (>.<) \m/ Oh, yeah! So, I bought Rock Band last week, and let's just say that it is beyond addictive. I am a drum goddess and can rock that guitar like it's no one's business. Also, I can belt out some tunes and feel like a rockstar (man, am I metal or what??) Ok, so I'm not metal, but I can totally pretend to be in the comfort of my living room, dammit! And, to tie this into the original topic, I'm hoping my hair will add to my new rockstar persona and will somehow boost my guitaring skills so I can get my freaking 5 stars on the medium level of Paranoid! *crosses her fingers and prays to the rock gods*

Music pick for the Day: "Maps" by the Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Beverage pick for the Day: Starbucks Breakfast Blend coffee
Socks for the Day: knee high pink, black and white argyle with SKULLS (totally metal!!!)


*edit* PICS!!!



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Podcasts, ahoy!

Since I got my new iPod last year, I have had Podcasts that I've subscribed to, but nothing religiously. I'd listened to Ask a Ninja and Hope is Emo, because they make me laugh, but I'd yet to try any audio podcasts where people just talk about things. Mike at work was talking about how he is a podcastaholic and I decided to give it a shot. I subscribe to the GFW magazine and enjoy it a lot, so when he named GFW as one of the podcasts he listens to, I was intrigued . So, last night, I went ahead and downloaded the most recent one and I've been listening to it at work today, and I must say, I love it. They are funny and they discuss things that interest me, and they go off on tangents and talk smack and I may have an e-crush on a few of them now. (Mike also said that he thinks these guys do a WoW podcast, which if it's true, sign me up!). I also downloaded 1UP Yours, which I have not listened to, but am looking forward to! I talked to Mike today and told him that I'd gotten these two and he sent me a list of 19 more that he suggests I check out... and I'm gonna. Podcasts FTW, I say!

Now to find a crochet podcast and I'm set!!

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Meeemorieeees

A few weeks ago, I was in a good mood and decided to sit at my computer and be at one with the internet for a day. I read some blogs, browsed some forums, looked at some pictures, and started a Facebook account! I've had a Myspace page for a while, but only got it because of a couple of work people and don't really use it aside from checking to see if they have new pics and read their comments and such, and I'm pretty "meh" about Myspace in general. So, I decided to get a Facebook account, since I knew it had a better networking setup than Myspace and I was curious to see who I could find on here. So, I made an account and it has you enter your job, where you live, and your high school and such, so I did a search of my graduating class and there was a "whoosh" sound and the memories came flooding back. There were a lot of people that came up, but I only poked a few (*note* I have always had this weird paranoia that people won't remember me. Eventhough I knew these people for years and it's been 7 years since I've seen them, I still have this irrational fear that they've blocked out high school and that they'd be all "Karen who?" So, I only "poked" the people who I thought would be the least offended by my poking them after so long.) There was Kim, who was my BFF from like 4th grade through high school (and I still can't believe we drifted so far apart...makes me sad to think about), Anne and Ben. It's so weird to think about them all grown up, since I still picture them as they were when high school ended. Kim looks exactly the same, but seeing pictures of her siblings, it shows me the reality that years have passed since we were friends and it does make me wish I'd stayed in touch. Anne seems to have broken out of her shell and let her wild side out, which shouldn't have surprised me, but it did. And Ben, who's all growed up, and married, to boot!

Seeing these old friends has made me think about where my life is and where I'd hoped I'd be by now. I've lost my way over the years and miss the Karen I used to be. She's still in here, but my years with Scott changed me, and not for the better. I've become bitter and pessimistic and, sure, I still have my goofy good moods that remind me of a more innocent time, but I long to have the spunk and whimsy that I had. So, this is going on my "to do" list for 2008: Find my inner Karen. I know she's around and I feel that part of me when I've had a good day and when Jackson and I are playing, but I want that to be my all-the-time mood. So, let's hope I can find my way back soon!


Music pick for the Day: "The Nicest Kids in Town" by James Marsden (From Hairspray!... don't judge me! I less than three muscials and this is no exception!)
Beverage pick for the Day: lots and lots of coffee
Socks for the Day: Red and black striped Grumpy the Dwarf knee highs

Is it over yet?

So, New Year's Eve. Thank god. I'm so ready for this year to be over, it's not even funny. I can, without hesitation, say that this has been the absolute worst year of my life. Sure, there was good times, and there were times that it seemed great, but overall: worst. I just really can't wait for it to strke midnight tonight and I can say goodbye to 2007 forever. And I really hope that 2008 starts to look up for me, because I really can't handle another year like this. But! I'm not going to just wish it to happen and be sad when it doesn't get better. I've already made some life changes and will be looking to do more after the new year. I know you're probably asking yourself "what sort of life changes is she talking about?" Well, my friends, I shall tell you!

First off, it has been 44 days since I smoked my last cigarette. I had been smoking since I was 15 and earlier this year, I had tried to cut back and was doing well until this fall. Then I was up to over a pack a day again and couldn't really make myself smoke any less. I was in a bad place and knew I couldn't keep smoking as much as I was, so I made a doctor's appointment and got myself on Chantix. I was on it for 1 month and was done smoking after my 3rd week. I sincerely would recommend this to anyone who is serious about quitting smoking. If I can do it, you can, too! So, go-go healthy lungs!

Another change that I made, that was not voluntary but happened as a side effect to my misery, is that I lost weight, so yay. I'm wearing pants I haven't worn in well over a year and some I haven't worn in 2 years. I feel better about myself and want to work on fitting into some more pants I have stashed away in my closet that I haven't worn since before I had Jackson, so this brings me to one of the changes that will take affect in the near future:

I'm going to be joining a gym. What better way to stay in shape and feel good about myself than to join a gym and work out every day? I was hoping to start this back in November, but money has been tight and I couldn't justify the $40 a month yet, so I'm going to be starting that hopefully in early February when I have some extra money.

Other, non-life changing things that I've done would include learning to crochet, which is my new addiction. I started crocheting 9 days ago and have made 2 scarves and 1.5 fingerless gloves (I finished the left one and am 1/2 way done with the right). I watch entirely too much TV and felt that I was wasting so much time by doing this, so I decided that crocheting would be a nice hobby to do while I watch TV, so I don't feel like such a slacker. I really hope I don't tire of this, and I honestly think that I won't. I think this will be something that I will keep with for a while. And! once I get better at crocheting, I will hopefully teach myself to knit!
I know, I know. You're probably thinking "Neat..." but I am probably the most un-crafty person there is and never really would have pegged myself as someone who would do this as a pasttime, but man, do I love it!

Also, now that I'm going to FINALLY be getting a kitchen table (after 14 months....), I will be baking more and am going to take a stab at cake decorating. I'm not very artistic, so we'll see how that goes. I will, at the very least, be trying out new recipes and will hopefully make a blog about it (and, perhaps one for my new love, Mr. Crochet). I also would like to start to be more adventurous with my cooking, so be on the lookout for pictures of nummy food in the future!

So, to recap: 2007 can DIAF and helllooooo 2008, a year that will hopefully hold many good surprises for me! I plan to ring in the New Year with a clear mind and an open heart and hope that the stroke of midnight will wash away all the bad so I have room in my life for all the good.

Happy New Year, everyone!

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Music pick for the Day: "Goodbye to You" by Michelle Branch
Beverage pick for the Day: mmmmm, coffee
Socks for the Day: black and pink knee highs

The Ninja-Monkey Collective

So, a while back, I took this test and it told me I was ENFJ. And, according to this site this made me a candidate for a first-class cult leader, which sounded quite promising.
However, I retake the test today and I get this:

You Are An INFP

The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world. Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships. It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close. But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. In love, you tend to have high (and often unrealistic) standards. You are very sensitive. You tend to have intense feelings. At work, you need to do something that expresses your personal values. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist. How you see yourself: Unselfish, empathetic, and spiritual When other people don't get you, they see you as: Unrealistic, naive, and weak

What's Your Personality Type?

..which is pretty much me. However, according to the REAL Myer's Briggs site, it makes me an idealist...and, from the description, kind of offensive!

So, in short, I would do well as an offensive cult leader who has irrational ideals and likes to collect minions for fun.

*note to self: Must get resume on Monster in case mis-led minions are in need of a messiah*

Music pick for the Day: "Everyone's a Little Bit Racist" by The Cast of Avenue Q
Beverage pick for the Day: Deja Blue agua
Socks for the Day: gray and black striped knee-highs

*UPDATE*
So, I took this test again on this site and I got ENFJ. So, apparently, I really am an idealistic cultist. Who knew!

Two?!?!??!?!?!

So, 2 weeks ago at work, I was sent an invitation to a focus group. Focus groups are held periodically to go over an issues we may have and what can be done to correct the problems. So, I accepted the invite and thought nothing more of it. So, last Thursday rolls around and I have my "focus group" at 1pm. I go to the meeting room, notebook and pen in hand, open the door and I'm greeted by applause.

O.o

What's this? People applauding me? Well, said people are the call center mangaers, the director, and the VP of Customer Care. Ok... so, no focus group. It was a ploy to get me and 4 others together for a celebratory meeting. The 5 of us received Champion of Distinction awards, which came with a certificate saying, well, Champion of Distinction, as well as... you ready? Brace yourself... a $2000 check for each of us.

Again... O.o

So, they go over what we won for (mine was for my work on collections and discovering an error with our combined statements... I won't go into details, since you wouldn't know what I was talking about, anyway!!) and we get food (Italian food from Ala Roma was delivered.. mmm.. ) and cake and chit chat and such.

So, here I was, $2000 richer. What to do with my monies? What to do??? Well, I mulled over it for about a day. Then decided I wanted to upgrade my computer so it would run smoother, a case to make it look prettier, and a new monitor so I could have a new monitor... or maybe 2. Crystal and her dual monitor set up has made me jealous for months. So, Saturday, I head to Best Buy and get a 20.1 inch LCD monitor.

Sexy.

I go home, order my 2gig of RAM and a new case. Then I get to thinking: Since I ordered my RAM and case, I will get them sometime this week and when I get them, I want to be able to set up my monitors right away so I can be all /fancy. So, to the store I go to get the 19 inch widescreen monitor I was eyeing the night before. And, while I'm there, I decide I need new speakers, so I get some Altec Lansing speakers + sub woofer to accent my new monitory goodness.

Pic of my new set up:

So, in addition to new computer stuffs, I also got Jackson some new clothes and the Flushed Away DVD, new silverware plus silverware tray, a toaster, hangers, a LotR Middle Earth map (not a geek...), and.. misc other things that I can't remember anymore.

All in all, this weekend gets 2 thumbs up!

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Music pick for the Day: "The Future Soon" by Jonathan Coulton
Beverage for the Day: Cherry coke
Socks for the Day: Pink and black striped knee highs